I'm very big on the everything happens for a reason thing. DF and I didn't speak for five years and I found him on fb while he was still deployed. We've known each other for ten years but just now fell into the right place, right time.
I know in my heart it will happen when it's supposed to. I constantly dream of that curly red headed blue eyed little girl in the sundress. I know she will come to me one day.
Until then, I can't sit around and dwell. Most women wouldn't have even known by the time I found out I was losing it. I have over fourty animals that count on me to get up every morning and turn them out. That trust I never let their water run dry. So I can't sit and mope. It's not in my nature.
Your spirit and reseliance are amazing.