[Shhhhh. I'm not really here. I said I wasn't going to. Cuz when I'm depressed, I isolate. But since I love you guys, I can't stay away. I've been lurking every day, and reading y'alls lives, and smiling, and laughing, and crying a bit. And I took another mental health day today.

And I'm coming up with a New Plan for my life. So there is hope.
And I made my chicken wreath, and it is ugly, but my chickens love it. And I'm making another one today, for the other coop. And I've been getting eggs. Every day. Sweet little presents from my sweet little feathered friends. It's hard to find gratitude when you are depressed, but I thank them daily. And I am thankful for you, because I know you guys care.
I've been saying "no" alot, and not giving a damn what people think. To my inlaws' dreadful holiday dinner, to the nurse's party today after work (not there, don't care!)cuz those backstabbing bitches don't want me there anyway! And lemme tell you, it feels good. as. hell.
But--I'm not really here. Even though it looks like I am. So don't go getting all excited, lol. But the little, wispy ghost of me wanted to poke her dorky head in and say hello to all my beloved chicken friends. I love you guys. And I'm' still here, even though I'm not.
Love,
Cindi]