I eat my chickens because I know they were raised with love, good food, and had a good life. Far better than any store bought chicken in flavor, and in their life experience. It is hard at times, but also very rewarding to me to know they had a good life, not some crappy caged experience without love and scratching about in any meaningful way.
You love your steaks. Wouldn't you rather know it came from a cow who was well loved and cared for than one who lived a miserable (cow) life?
I am an omnivore. While I fully respect vegetarians and vegans, I just can't do it. So, in my mind, the least I can do is to make sure what I eat had a decent life. I have consciously made a shift to have some non-meat meals (i.e. subbing legumes instead of meat into some recipes), but there really is no substitute for good meat, be it steak, chicken, or other. When you raise it yourself, and have to kill it yourself, it makes you much more aware, and much more desirous of using the whole animal as much as possible.
I love that you love your girls (and Jaffar) so much, treat them so well, and have such a unique and wonderful relationship with them. I respect that you can't think of eating them. However, I got my chickens initially specifically so that I COULD eat 'contaminant free' eggs and chicken meat. I love them, I treat them as well as I can, I cry when I process them, but I also love what they give to me food wise as well. Each and every one I process, I thank, I hold them tenderly before processing, and I sincerely hope that they pass as stress and pain free as possible.
Tax for rambling reactions: (Yes, water-fountain me is crying again, now!

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