Bob, That couldn't be more RIGHT ON very good my friend.What a wonderful tax.
I have been thinking about what you said regarding you husband not liking how upset you get when something happens to one. It is kind of the mirror image to my situation.
Mrs BY Bob did not like how upset I was when Patsy passed in my arms. She actually told me if I was going to be that upset over a chicken there would be no more new ones. Because of this, as I reflect back now, I grieved for Maleficent in private, not in front of her. Thankfully I had my friends here to help.
I recognize that it is hard for our loved ones to watch us be so sad. For me though the depth of the sadness is related to the depth of the joy an attachment to them has brought us. I believe that if one has not experienced great joy, then great sorrow does not come. All should rejoice that we have been able to experience such wonderful connections. We should also not be shamed for showing our emotions.
My brother has chickens and the last time one passed his wife was broken up. He called me about it and made the mistake of saying "my gosh it was just a chicken".
They are as much a member of my family as any cat or dog has ever been.
I think that you should push back on your husband. Why should your joy be limited because he doesn't want to deal with you being upset? Instead help him to understand that grieving is a good thing. It means their life had meaning to you. What is more special than that?