Thank you all for your understanding, kind words and support. I have my camera charging as I know I owe a boat load of tax and will pay up this evening.
All I did yesterday was sleep and minimal chicken chores. I gathered eggs and put everyone to bed for snuggles and that is it. Part of it was sheer exhaustion, but a huge part of it was feeling sorry for myself. I have been dealing with depression and sometimes anxiety for years, never terribly bad but it would come and go. I have been reluctant to take medications for fear of them "knocking me out" so to say. I broke over last month at my DRs appointment and told him I was going crazy and I needed help, I could not do it anymore. He suggested I try one called Effexor, it has a anxiety med built in and is not supposed to knock you out. It helped a little bit while she was here. I'm sure now that she is gone maybe I can see the full benefits from the medication. I do know after yesterday I'm not allowing myself to be drug down any longer. I'm going outside after I fix Rosie lunch and there are chores waiting. My coop needs a proper cleanout, stalls need cleaned and I have neglected the boys and the chickens for far too long. I have 3 broody hens that have to be broken up, it is too hot this week and next for them to safely think about setting and Karen needs taming.

Enjoy time with the animals - they are always good therapy for when the whole people interaction gets on top of you. Take the camera not to pay tax but to share the loveliness that deep down you know is all around you (even Karen!).
