Oh goodness, Alex. You’re having such a rough go. You have given your birds a wonderful life. Sometimes as hard as we try, they just can’t live forever. I’m so sad for you.I’m a failure . Beethoven-Hen is gone, Canna is gone, Arizona and sunshine are gone. Everyone I have cared about is gone! Hen-Rietta stays with me for pity I guess. My heart isn’t just broken, it’s been shattered thru a paper shredder and then burned with a blowtorch!!