I should be happy. I did have the lovely Flash purring to me. But I’m not happy at all. Could I have saved Chaco? I know I couldn’t, but I’m hurting inside. 😕
I don’t know if you ever read Strider’s story that I posted. So I will just say that even if there was a slight chance of saving Chaco this time (and honestly it sounds like that was an extremely small chance), once they have the kind of colic and surgery you talked about there is a decent chance of reoccurrence. Especially if they stay in the same environment. The restrictions to help them recover from the surgery also aren’t easy. Even though he was only about five years old when he had his first colic, if I had it to do over again I don’t think I would have done the surgery. Even though it was considered a “success”.

I know it is hard, but the “what if” game can destroy you. I know we all play it from time to time. But you need to grieve for her, and then focus on the good times you had and give yourself permission to move on. Chaco wouldn’t want you to keep beating yourself up about this. :hugs
 
You did what any proper responsible pet owner should and would do. You gave her a good home, and cared for her, and when she was ill your sent her to a Veterinarian. When she was suffering you ensured that she didn't have to endure it.

You did everything perfectly. PERFECTLY. You can and should be sad and miss her, but you should never ever do the 'woulda, coulda, shoulda' thing. All that brings is more misery.

Tell me a funny silly crazy thing that she did? When Truly was a yearling she was running so fast one day she ran past me and made a turn, the ground was very hard and bare dirt, her hooves slipped and she fell flat on her side right in front of me! she went down with a Ooomph! lay there for a second during which I freaked out, the she jumped up leapt into the air kicked out her hind feet almost connecting with me, and took off again!

So did Chaco do silly stuff like that?

TAX OWING (more photos to come!)
Chaco almost climbed into my Lexus one day. I had bags of carrots and apples for her, and a 50lb bag of oats. Her head whithers and front legs and hooves were inside the car, after those apples 🍎!
 
I don’t know if you ever read Strider’s story that I posted. So I will just say that even if there was a slight chance of saving Chaco this time (and honestly it sounds like that was an extremely small chance), once they have the kind of colic and surgery you talked about there is a decent chance of reoccurrence. Especially if they stay in the same environment. The restrictions to help them recover from the surgery also aren’t easy. Even though he was only about five years old when he had his first colic, if I had it to do over again I don’t think I would have done the surgery. Even though it was considered a “success”.

I know it is hard, but the “what if” game can destroy you. I know we all play it from time to time. But you need to grieve for her, and then focus on the good times you had and give yourself permission to move on. Chaco wouldn’t want you to keep beating yourself up about this. :hugs
I read everything
 
@BY Bob did you even get any sleep💤🛌💤? You were on still around midnight or even a bit later...and you have already posted when I logged in after taking care of the chickies!!!

With all this sadness going around, thought I would post a positive pic/story.

These are pictures of my 'crop girl'. She is still doing very well, though she has seemed to forgotten I saved her life, as she has gradually gone back to being a 'no snuggle/no touch ' girl. She will still eat out of my hand...but she did that before, so🤷‍♀️View attachment 3302084View attachment 3302085

I know I'm just a tad bit biased...but I think she is a pretty girl!🥰🥰
Her coloring is beautiful!
 
I don’t know if you ever read Strider’s story that I posted. So I will just say that even if there was a slight chance of saving Chaco this time (and honestly it sounds like that was an extremely small chance), once they have the kind of colic and surgery you talked about there is a decent chance of reoccurrence. Especially if they stay in the same environment. The restrictions to help them recover from the surgery also aren’t easy. Even though he was only about five years old when he had his first colic, if I had it to do over again I don’t think I would have done the surgery. Even though it was considered a “success”.

I know it is hard, but the “what if” game can destroy you. I know we all play it from time to time. But you need to grieve for her, and then focus on the good times you had and give yourself permission to move on. Chaco wouldn’t want you to keep beating yourself up about this. :hugs
Very wise words.
 
I am so sorry 😢
It really looks quite pathetic. And today they aren't hanging out together (it is a miserable foggy wet day) so it looks even worse. I have two times one chicken, not even two chickens (if you see what I mean).
It will be better when it stops raining and they can go out exploring together.
 

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