I don’t know if you ever read Strider’s story that I posted. So I will just say that even if there was a slight chance of saving Chaco this time (and honestly it sounds like that was an extremely small chance), once they have the kind of colic and surgery you talked about there is a decent chance of reoccurrence. Especially if they stay in the same environment. The restrictions to help them recover from the surgery also aren’t easy. Even though he was only about five years old when he had his first colic, if I had it to do over again I don’t think I would have done the surgery. Even though it was considered a “success”.I should be happy. I did have the lovely Flash purring to me. But I’m not happy at all. Could I have saved Chaco? I know I couldn’t, but I’m hurting inside.![]()
I know it is hard, but the “what if” game can destroy you. I know we all play it from time to time. But you need to grieve for her, and then focus on the good times you had and give yourself permission to move on. Chaco wouldn’t want you to keep beating yourself up about this.
