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Not much to tell, toots. Went through my mom's stuff with my sis, got a little teeny bit of jewelry and a shawl. Caught up on our dysfunctional family life.

Went back to therapy.

Not sleeping, not eating much, lost 7 pounds (the upside of depression, lol! I feel like crap, but I look fabulous! Not).

Tried to go back to work yesterday, walked in the door, got sent home because there are already two subs in my place, and it is irrelevant for me to even be there--burst into tears, got told I looked like crap and they are worried about me, and to go get a doctor's note saying not to come back. As I still have a month there left (why won't they just let me go?!)

I got an emergency appointment at my doctor. Had an abnormally fast pulse. She gave me an EKG, and it was abnormal (because I was having a panic attack, hello!) She wanted to send me to the ER via ambulance. I was like, um, no, cuz it's a panic attack and I will have a legit heart attack once I get that bill. Let me calm down, do some yogic breathing, and you can re-EKG me.

And so I did, and so she did, and it was normal. And she wrote me an excuse for a week off. Better than nothing!

Last night I slept, for the first time in I don't know how long, and without meds to boot. And I feel all right, today. Living la vida loca, betches!! (literally, ha!) ;)

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Amen, sistah. I would be SO PISSED if my hubby bought me any kind of cleaning implement!!!!!! Other than a maid, lol.

Perfume, massage, pedi, a Sephora or TSC gift card, anything with a chicken or pitbull on it? Now you're talking!
I would die if I got any of those.
 
You take that week off honey and look at it as a big shiny GIFT!

Put those people out of your mind.
For this week,
THEY DO NOT EXIST!

We love you Cindi.
Remember the compassion speech?
We are sharing your pain.
If you were here I'd share my KitKat with you.
Heck I'd even hold it for you while you nibbled it like a bunny.
Then after, I'd give you a big smooshy hug.


Honey girl,

I love you. I really do. I *am* looking at it as a gift. I feel like I've been given a reprieve, like a death row prisoner, lol!

I loved the compassion speech. It was quite beautiful. If I ever go to NC, I would love to visit you, beautiful sister. Or if you come to NJ ever. You better stop by.

Such wonderful folks on here! You guys really are a gift, truly. One of my goofier dreams is to do a "Travels With Chickens" tour (a la Travels With Charley, or Blue Highways style) where I travel the country, meet my crazy BYC buds and their chickens, drink lots of wine, hang out (oh Smuvvie. It would be epic. Our husbands would both divorce our drunken arses) and then WRITE A BOOK about the whole thing, lol. How totally bomb would that be, lol!!!!

A girl can dream. :)
 
Honey girl,

I love you. I really do. I *am* looking at it as a gift. I feel like I've been given a reprieve, like a death row prisoner, lol!

I loved the compassion speech. It was quite beautiful. If I ever go to NC, I would love to visit you, beautiful sister. Or if you come to NJ ever. You better stop by.

Such wonderful folks on here! You guys really are a gift, truly. One of my goofier dreams is to do a "Travels With Chickens" tour (a la Travels With Charley, or Blue Highways style) where I travel the country, meet my crazy BYC buds and their chickens, drink lots of wine, hang out (oh Smuvvie. It would be epic. Our husbands would both divorce our drunken arses) and then WRITE A BOOK about the whole thing, lol. How totally bomb would that be, lol!!!!

A girl can dream. :)
No offense, but I won't let any of you guys near my chickens... you can look at them from afar, but I'm not risking any disease transfer. I will, however, gift any visitors a rooster of my choosing.
 
No offense, but I won't let any of you guys near my chickens... you can look at them from afar, but I'm not risking any disease transfer. I will, however, gift any visitors a rooster of my choosing.
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Ok, you're off for a week longer.. which I'm guessing would be using sick time so you will still have vaca days left, right? How many more days are you stuck there & how many more vaca days do you have? I'm wondering if you restful sleep is b/c you're free from hell for another week w/o guilt.


Yep, you got it! Using all my sick days, as I've been (because they are mine and I earned them and I will lose them). I very rarely called in sick the last two and a half years, so I have a lot.

I have 16 days left there when I come back. 11 of them are sick days. So technically, I would only have to work 5, but since there is a holiday it actually makes me have to work more (their stupid policy of not being able to call in before or after a holiday) so I have to work 7 total.

It's freaking stupid, since they are overstaffing and paying more for two subs a day additional PLUS me to do the work that I would do alone, for pretty much the rest of my employment there. As well as paying me for a sick day each time. Wen they could just let me go early and be done with it.

I've had several people tell me I have grounds for a harassment/bullying/toxic workplace suit (including one of my administrators who is not supposed to say that). But I have not been documenting any of the stuff that has been going on the past 10 months or so. And I don't want the hassle. I just want out, so I can get my taters (and mental health) back together.
 
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